帮我翻译成英文。 不用字字对， 大概意思不能错！

我想 , 没办法挽回了 , 我做了太多过分得事 , 那样得我 , 有点陌生, 可不得不承认, 是我. 也不知道是为什么 , 可能 , 那是我得本来面目? 我也不知道 ,或许是什么由于什么 , 也可能由于我. 说到我 , 笑了, 我到现在我都不知道自己是个什么性格 ,好象随时会爆发出一种我不知道得性格. 温顺, 暴躁,活泼, 冷漠,心软,残酷. 多话, 沉默 , 觉得自己喜欢热闹点 , 有时候却会因为别人得吵闹发火 ,真奇怪噢. 呵 , 到底哪个才是我叻? 可惜 , 我一直伪装得很好, 我看起来哪么开心, 看起来那么强势 , 其实是因为怕受伤. 其实是因为受伤之后不知道到那里舔伤口 . 其实是因为受伤之后不知道该怎么办. 其实你说得话, 我都记得 . 你是狮子座 , 能够忍受我 , 那么久了 , 总是迁就我. 我真得很抱歉, 我实在不想你丢下我 , 我想我可能太激动了 . 你说那么多遍我错了, 我还是那么生气 . 可是 , 你想过么 . 你答应我得10万字呢 , 你甚至不愿意为我写 , 用电脑我都幸福了 . 可是 , 我却那么渺小. 我想 , 我该换个方式爱你了. 我想, 我应该换一种生活方式了 , 那么堕落.

I want to save, I do too much too much, so I have to, a bit strange, but had to admit, I did not know why it is. May I have, that is true? I don't know, maybe because of what, what I could say to me. Because I smiled, till now, I don't know what a character, like an outbreak will have character. I don't know, irritable, lively, docile, indifference, cruel words. More conciliatory, silence, and feel like lively, sometimes because others noisy, strange oh. Oh, exactly which is my le? Unfortunately, I always disguise really well and I look so happy, look so strong, it's because of injury after injury. Because don't know the wound. Actually there is licking after didn't know what to do. In fact, you have to say, I remember you, can bear me Leo, so long, always indulge me. I'm very sorry, I really don't think you leave me, I think I might be too excited. You said so many times I was wrong, I was so angry. But, you thought you promised me? 100,000 words, you wouldn't even for me to write, I was happy with the computer, but, I was so small. I want to change this way, I love you. I think I should change a way of life, and then fall.